Today is the day.
Possibly the day when everything I prayed, wished, hoped for starts to come true.
I'm so excited, y'all!
It's been such a long road with all the fertility stuff,
and I know it's not close to over yet,
but finally I can see a little glimmer of hope at the end of the tunnel.
I figured today would be a good day to share with you our fertility struggles,
from day one.
I guess Joe and I had been married all of five minutes when we started trying for a baby.
We both knew we wanted a big family.
Both of us had a rough sort of childhood.
I was raised by my Grandparents, and his Mom had mostly raised him,
but with a lot of drama along the way.
When I think back, we probably started trying a little too early,
but it's a good thing we didn't wait too long,
because we didn't know what a road we had ahead of us.
Just like everyone else who starts trying to conceive, we just knew it was going to
happen instantly.
I probably had ruffled feathers about it by a month or so into it,
just because I had high expectations that it would happen quickly.
We tried for about six months before I really got the feeling that I knew something was
wrong, but even then we continued to try.
About a year into it we started seeking medical attention.
I've gotta tell you though, I wasn't impressed with the first set of Doctors we saw.
They didn't seem to buy the fact that anything was wrong with me,
so they just prolonged everything, taking months to make any real steps of progress.
Luckily for us, when my Husband got out of the military, we moved back from
Tennessee to Florida and had to change Doctors.
I instantly fell in love with our new Doctor.
He was kind, and within a month he had set up testing to see if my tubes were blocked.
The test confirmed what I already felt I knew, they were blocked,
and scarred.
To this day, I don't really know why my tubes are the way they are.
I don't have any history that would point to this.
The Doctors say it looks like I may have had endometriosis (not sure I spelled that right)
and that it just played a number on my tubes.
After they confirmed my tubes were blocked, I asked for immediate
laparascopic surgery, to get a better look.
The Doctor said that he did the best he could to clear out the blockages in my tubes,
but they're extremely enlarged and just all around damaged.
He told us we could try, since I was young...it may not be impossible that I would become pregnant.
All my life I've been so excited to be a Mother.
I never had any huge career ambitions growing up.
I just knew that I was going to have that family life I'd always craved.
I went into a pretty dark place realizing that it just may not be possible.
This last year has been the hardest of my life,
but I've finally come to a place where I'm accepting of what is,
and I have hope.
After the surgery, my Doctor mentioned to me that I could try in vitro...
a procedure where egg and sperm is mixed, an embryo is made,
and that embryo is directly implanted into your uterus.
For those of you who don't know, it's a VERY expensive procedure,
for which insurance will not pay.
Through some amazing miracle, my Husband has had a ridiculous amount of work
this first few months of the year...making three to four times more than he ever has,
allowing us to put a great amount of money into savings.
Allowing us to be able to afford a chance at our biggest dream, to be parents.
Today is our first consultation for in vitro, and we are over the moon excited.
It's hard for me to fathom that I could be pregnant soon.
April marks our four year wedding anniversary.
Four years of trying, crying and not understanding what the heck was going on.
I'm super blessed to have that man as my Husband.
He wants kids every bit as much as me, and he is healthy enough to have them.
Never once has he made me feel anything but supported, loved, and enough.
I am so excited for everything to come this next few months,
and I have to really believe that this is what we've been waiting for,
which is hard for me (I'm sort of the pessimistic type.)
Thanks for reading our infertility story, and I can't wait to keep you updated every
step of the way.
Me & my babe, probably a week after we started dating.
Pretty sure he's the cutest thing ever! :)
